Chapters in this book

1. Front Matter i
2. Dedication v
3. Contents vii
4. I
5. Tosca Lived a Good Life 1
6. In the Belly of the Whale 2
7. A New Toolbox 3
8. Recent Blood Tests Are Indicative of a Cancer Recurrence 5
9. What I Lost That Day in Gifford, Pennsylvania 6
10. No More Words 8
11. What Meaning 9
12. Not a Fairy-Tale Ending 10
13. Dear Becky 12
14. I Drowned 14
15. Half-Found John Muir Poem #4 15
16. River of Mercy 16
17. II
18. Winter Rain 23
19. Half-Found John Muir Poem #5 24
20. Spargania magnoliata 25
21. On a Summer Day after My Son and I Witness a Young Man's Drowning 27
22. What Is Gathered and What Is Lost 28
23. Walking Home 30
24. More Ache than the Sea 31
25. The Anchorage Jail 32
26. Emergency Room, Wednesday 4pm 34
27. Inside Out 35
28. His Sadness Is a Lake 36
29. These Mountains Are Long-Extinct Volcanoes 38
30. Near Power Creek: After a Marriage 40
31. Looking out the Window on a Winter Morning 43
32. Still 44
33. Anniversary: My Parents' Marriage 45
34. Redpolls in Winter 47
35. III
36. Mythography of the Wolf's Sorrow or An Alternative Rendering of the Romulus and Remus Legend 51
37. Trinity 56
38. Tosca, Act V 57
39. Here the Promise 58
40. Only Winter 59
41. Reincarnate 60
42. I Bow 62
43. Kashin-Beck Disease Is Endemic to Tibet 63
44. Who Will Speak of Lhasa? 64
45. Faith 66
46. All Things Are Transient 67
47. Dr. Anderson Called and the News Isn't Good 69
48. This Body Is Baggage I'm Not Yet Ready to Leave Behind 72
49. IV
50. This Is a Raging Wind 75
51. Since June 76
52. Walk on Water 77
53. Half-Found John Muir Poem #1 79
54. Ge(ne)ology 80
55. Half-Found John Muir Poem #2 82
56. On a Summer Day 83
57. Sun like a Daffodil 85
58. A Light in Winter 86
59. Half-Found John Muir Poem #3 88
60. Remission 89
61. Half-Found Li Shang-yin Poem 90
62. Tomorrow Is a White Flag 91
63. Unravel 93
64. Sky Burial 94
65. Notes 95
66. Acknowledgments 97