Chapters in this book

1. Frontmatter i
2. Contents vii
3. Preface ix
4. 1 “The damage that I am” 1
5. 2 “Fuckin’ dead weight” 8
6. 3 Drowning 18
7. 4 “Cure sometimes. Relieve often. Comfort always.” 28
8. 5 “You’re in it with me now” 35
9. 6 “The closest thing to love” 42
10. 7 Cause of causes 49
11. 8 “Speak for me” 59
12. 9 Fever 67
13. 10 Partialists 74
14. 11 “What are we doing here?” 80
15. 12 Gifts 88
16. 13 “It ends here” 96
17. 14 “Help me” 103
18. 15 Under siege 110
19. 16 “Boohoo” 123
20. 17 Running 130
21. 18 “Who is going to give a shit?” 137
22. 19 “I’ve got this figured out” 142
23. 20 “I used to think that nothing could change” 149
24. 21 The Care Revolution 153
25. Postscript 189
26. Acknowledgments 191
27. Notes 193
28. Index 213