Chapters in this book

1. Frontmatter i
2. Contents vi
3. The Father I Had 1
4. God Was a Baby 3
5. A Child’s Book of Holy Services 4
6. Her Breath on My Face 6
7. Other Side of the Glass 8
8. Effect on Her Throat 10
9. The House on Strathnaver Avenue 11
10. Mothers Who Know 15
11. The Thing about Snow 16
12. Photograph 22
13. Under the Covers 23
14. The Girls I Grew Up with Are Everywhere 25
15. Short Change 27
16. After the Test 28
17. Walk on the Left-Hand Side 29
18. 5:53 PM 30
19. A Perspective on Women 32
20. Collard Greens 33
21. Lasts 34
22. I’m Allowed to Have Whatever Kind of Father I Want 36
23. Intimacy 38
24. On the Porch 39
25. At Times, My Teeth Chatter 41
26. About face
27. What It’s Like to Have My Face 46
28. Understanding My Face 47
29. Wake 52
30. A Fragile Defiance 54
31. Smoke 55
32. Winnipeg Trip 57
33. Commitment 59
34. Two Mornings, 2018 61
35. Boxed 63
36. Those I Call Friends 64
37. Duck Ugly 66
38. Beneficiaries of a Genocide 67
39. Slow 69
40. Sometimes You Learn Things Quite Late in the Game 70
41. Something Purple 72
42. What it is like to be this extreme and appear normal 75
43. The Other Grandmother 78
44. Self-Portrait of the Poet 80
45. Addendum 83
46. Poetic statement 87
47. Acknowledgements 90