Chapters in this book

1. Frontmatter i
2. Contents vii
3. Millions of Years Ago 1
4. My Nico 2
5. Unfolding a Flood 4
6. Turning the Key 5
7. The Memory of Lake Tahoe 16
8. My Mother’s Eyes 17
9. My Mother 18
10. Coda 21
11. By Chance 25
12. When Bamboo Shoots Poke Their Heads out of the Earth 29
13. Blue Rambler 30
14. Tender Buttons 47
15. Waiting 49
16. Refusing to be Plucked 55
17. We Want Roses 56
18. She Sleeps with Him Every Night 59
19. She-Wolf Made of Rock 61
20. Blue Ticket 65
21. Learning to Swim 66
22. Floating Studio, Floating Zendo 67
23. Fannette Island 76
24. Floating Zendos and Mentorgartens 79
25. I Learned about Snowflakes 82
26. I Learned about the Birds of Lake Tahoe 84
27. Summer Snow Cake 86
28. Love or Affection 88
29. Mary’s Dream 89
30. Each Other’s Pockets 90
31. Black Cloth 91
32. Brown Kimono 95
33. Something Broke 96
34. The Voice of the Lake 101
35. Moon Writing 102
36. Artichoke 104
37. No Name for Him 107
38. What’s in a Name? 108
39. Like Piles of Laundry? 109
40. Frozen Pond 111
41. Coda’s Dream 113
42. Like Mother and Son 114
43. Fifteen Good Prints 115
44. Glass Moon 117
45. Tsukimi Udon (Moon Noodles) 119
46. Soaring 121
47. Walking Underwater 123
48. Open My Heart 125
49. Like Rice on Chopsticks 126
50. Like a Sequence of Poems 127
51. Waiting, Still 128
52. Morpheus 129
53. Blue Marble 131
54. Something Like Love 132
55. Afterword (Afterward): Like the Navel of My Dream of N 133
56. Acknowledgments 139
57. Illustrations 141
58. Notes 143