Chapters in this book

1. Frontmatter i
2. CONTENTS v
3. Foreword vii
4. PART ONE: 1920-1938
5. I 'What Are You Really?' 3
6. 2 'Half Dragged, Half Plunging, so He Sank .. .' 14
7. 3 Herr Kastner: 'To Be Applied to the Soul' 21
8. 4 Reverence for Writ 29
9. 5 Racial Theory 44
10. 6 Several Love Affairs at the Same Time 54
11. 7 My Most Wonderful Refuge - the Theatre 71
12. 8 A Suffering which Brings Happiness 88
13. 9 The Door to the Next Room 98
14. 10 With Invisible Luggage 103
15. PART TWO: 1938-1944
16. 11 Poetry and the War 113
17. 12 Hunting Down Jews Is Fun 123
18. 13 The Dead Man and His Daughter 131
19. 14 From Quarantine District to Ghetto 138
20. 15 The Words of a Fool 144
21. 16 'If Music Be the Food of Love ... ' 151
22. 17 Death Sentences to the Accompaniment of Viennese Waltzes 161
23. 18 An Intellectual, a Martyr, a Hero 170
24. 19 A Brand-new Riding Crop 176
25. 20 Order, Hygiene, Discipline 183
26. 21 Stories For Bolek 193
27. PART THREE: 1944-1958
28. 22 My First Shot, My Last Shot 209
29. 23 From Reich to Ranicki 222
30. 24 Brecht, Seghers, Huchel and Others 235
31. 25 Josef K., Stalin Quotations and Heinrich Boll 247
32. 26 A Study Trip with Consequences 261
33. 27 A Young Man with a Massive Moustache 269
34. PART FOUR: 1958-1973
35. 28 Recognized as Germans 281
36. 29 Group 47 and its First Lady 287
37. 30 Walter Jens, or the Friendship 297
38. 31 Literature as Awareness of Life 304
39. 32 Canetti, Adorno, Bernhard and Others 312
40. 33 A Tavern and a Calculating Machine 327
41. PART FIVE: 1973-1999
42. 34 The Sinister Guest of Honour 339
43. 35 Make Way for Poetry! 344
44. 36 A Genius only during Working Hours 353
45. 37 The Magician's Family 358
46. 38 Max Frisch 367
47. 39 Yehudi Menuhin and Our Quartet 373
48. 40 Joachim Fest and Martin Walser 382
49. 41 "Tis a Dream .. .' 391
50. 42 Thanksgiving 393
51. INDEX 395