Chapters in this book

1. Frontmatter i
2. Contents v
3. Acknowledgments vii
4. Editor s Note ix
5. Introduction xi
6. Part I: Identity and Identifications
7. "I Was Born Yakov Tworkovsky' 3
8. "Notes on My Painting" 6
9. Part II: "Dear Pond Lilies "
10. Letters to Wally Tworkov, 1936-37 17
11. Part III:The Extreme of the Middle
12. Journals and Diaries, 1947-63 31
13. Published Writings, 1948-78 152
14. Private Criticism 189
15. Part IV: Tworkov as Teacher
16. Pedagogical Theory 203
17. Lecture on Rhythm 208
18. Lecture Notes 218
19. Tworkov at Yale 221
20. Contemporary Voices in the Arts, 1967 235
21. Part V: Longings
22. "The Search for Meaning" 249
23. Notes from New York Hospital 1969 252
24. 'The Subject Matter of My Recent Paintings' 255
25. Journal July 1966-March 1975 257
26. Part VI: Family
27. "Dear Helen" 261
28. "Dear Hermine" 266
29. "Dear Erik" 277
30. "Dear Janice and Alain' 280
31. Part VII :Work and Life, 1973-78
32. Diaries, 1973-75 349
33. "The Medium" 363
34. "The Medium" 365
35. Diaries, 1976 367
36. "Blind Mans Bluff" 372
37. Diaries, 1976-78 374
38. Part VIII: Late Thoughts
39. "I Have a Certain Inclination to the Monstrous" Undated Note, 1970s 393
40. Diaries, 1979-80 395
41. "Art Saves My Life' Notes Made on the Train to Providence, RISD, April 22,1980 405
42. "A Nature in Deep Contemplation' Diaries, 1980-81 408
43. "Withdrawal into Silence" 417
44. Prognosis: Diaries, 1981 418
45. Letter to Andrew Forge 420
46. Diaries, 1981-82 424
47. Notes 429
48. Archival Sources 462
49. Index 465